That moment when you realize your life is too stable to be an artist.
I’ve had creative friends say, they feel like they are “selling out” if they get a “real job”. As if getting a real job, being an adult, and paying your bills somehow equates to you abandoning all your hopes and dreams. If you had kids then, yeah, your dreams are totally shot. JK, I kid, I kid
pun intended. But seriously having a real job can really put a damper on your artist flow. You can’t make that middle of the day interview, you can’t write a whole script in a day while smoking weed for creativity on a Thursday at 11am, and it’s hard to want to do anything after work other than have dinner and Netflix n Chill yourself.
So that’s where I am now, teetering between living the semi established life and feeling like I’m cheating on my dreams with my full time job. Until I realized I can have both. The other day, June 9th 2016 to be exact, I worked my first paid “writing” gig for a network TV show. I know, I know, I should be screaming from the rooftops, jumping on Oprah’s couch, crying tears of joy. And believe me, I’ve had my moment…
The reason I started this blog in 2013 just became more of a reality. But I realized this whole writing for TV shows dream isn’t going to have an end game. I’m always going to be pursuing it. I’m never going to be comfortable and I can’t say that having a full time job will prevent me from getting there.
I mean, I could go back to the restaurant and be a hostess/server. I could start temping again. I could move home. I could….stop trying to strategize my life and believe in my path, have faith, and confidence that I’m always in the right place at the absolute right time.
P.S. Slide into my DM’s for more info on my first gig. Also no one has ever slid into my DM’s.